Red Nose Day

Hello my lovelies!! Just wanted to share a couple red nose day pictures with you all, I hope you are all well and had a lovely day.. Hope no one had any bad luck being Friday the 13th and all that EEEKK!!

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Samantha x

A little letter to Lily…


Lily today you have really blown me away, even though you can be a right handful at times.

It all started this morning while walking to nursery, for some strange reason you was very interested with the fact you was in my tummy. You was asking all sorts of questions, but you found it very funny when I told you that you kicked me all the time and even more funny when I told you that you pooped in me (At the time a very worrying moment for mummy)

After all that explaining you then came up with the conclusion that I must get a baby inside my belly and that I have to give you and Laila six brothers!! SIX!! A very funny moment for me and even more funny when you asked if you could help me put a baby in my tummy… I just had to laugh that one off as I don’t think you are quite ready for that information as of yet.

After picking you up from nursery, you was so happy to tell me about your day and how it was your friends birthday today, you told me that you got to watch her blow out her candles while singing her happy birthday.. You was so happy you got to do this, it was so sweet! I also noticed that some of the other children made a card for mothers day, so I asked you if you have made a card.. Your reaction was so funny! You said “oh no sorry about that mummy, I can do one another day.”  Of course you can Lily!

This one really blew me away! We have just mastered counting to twenty but today you started counting to thirty with hardly any help! Now to me that is amazing!! You are well and truly a super star and you are most definitely going to be a clever one 🙂

This is where it gets a little emotional for me.. You really did touch my heart! Here is how the conversation went;

You: Mummy, you are my little princess and so is Laila

Me: Aww Thats very kind of you Lily, you are my little princess as well

You: And daddy is our handsome prince!

That was so heart touching! I really am going to remember that moment forever!

One thing I must say to you is.. You are very impatient about growing up, you are actually getting upset with how long it is taking.. Well to mummy it is going by way to quickly!

Love you lots little princess x

One Lovely Blog Award

One lovely blog

Thank you for nominating me for the One Lovely Blog Award Monkey and Mouse.

How it works

Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog.

Share 7 facts about yourself.

Nominate 10 bloggers for the award.

So, here are my 7 random facts about me

1. Due to complications with my Labor with Lily I am unable to ever have a natural birth, this is something what really bothers me.

2. I am Dyslexic, I found it very hard to handle in secondary school but as I got older I started finding ways to cope with it.

3. When pregnant with Laila I developed a condition called Intrahepatic cholestasis of pregnancy (ICP) Its a liver condition which makes your bile acids elevate which makes you extremely itchy. I wrote a post about it here Fighting The Itch

4. In my Science GSCE paper I scored 37/37… As you can tell I enjoy science.

5. Me and Bradley was first boyfriend and girlfriend at the age of 13 but we had a little break then in the end we knew we was meant to be together. So here we are 🙂

6. I was bullied in primary and secondary school, I still don’t understand why but this had a huge impact on my life. Maybe when I build up the courage I might do a post about it.

7. One day I hope to bring out my own cosmetics line.

My 10 Nominations are

1. @lwpprincesses

2. @LeahAndTwo

3. @LittleStarBlog1

4. @apinchofshaz

5. @abiscuitformama

6. @emilyvaughanx

7. @soot1978

8. @dextersmummy90

9. @BloggerMumma

10. @RaisingtheRings

Hope you enjoyed this post 🙂 Looking forward to seeing all your facts!

Samantha x

A little letter to Laila…

Laila x

Right Laila can you please tell me what has happened? When did my little girl grow into such an independent madam?

Mummy is so amazed this week! You have really and truly blew me off my feet, you have started using the potty then if that wasn’t enough you have taken sleeping in your own bed!

I really cannot believe you are going to be two this month.. You still seem like my little baby but when I take a step back and look I realise how much you have grown, I am actually getting all emotional writing this. I just cannot believe how clever and cheeky you are, like the other day we had our very first bicker I actually couldn’t believe my ears! You was poking the stereo speaker which you know your not allowed to do so mummy reminded you.

Me; “Laila stop poking that please, you could break it.”

Laila; ” I’m not.”

Me; “You are baby I can see you.”

Laila; ” I’M NOT.”

Then all I heard was your dad laughing I think he couldn’t believe what he was hearing either. We are getting a lot more of this “I’m not” Business, while at the time its very cute and clever of you.. it is still very cheeky and mummy has to explain a lot because you throw the “whys” at me every time.

Oh today! You and your sister melted my heart.. I wish I could of got this moment on camera, since moving you into Lily’s room, you two have been different! You two actually want to play with each other but this moment was so amazing to me, you two was watching frozen and I could hear you two singing along to “Let it go” so I walked past the bedroom to have a look and you two was standing looking at each other singing with the biggest’s smiles on your faces (oh no mummy has started the water works!) But that moment is going to stay in my heart forever!

I used to be worried that you and your sister wouldn’t get along at all but that moment I could see that you two are going to be just fine. Well sometimes I know sisters have their moments but I will be there for you and your sister though I still have a few years until then.

I just cannot believe you are going to be two, I am excited to watch you form your personality even more and watch you grow while I give you guidance

Mummy x

Another milestone!

Time really does fly by especially when you become a mum, you notice this even more when your children hit them extra special milestones!

I never thought Laila would be hitting this milestone so early! So when she started showing signs I was in complete shock and more than happy to assist her. So you can guess I was even more happy when she actually done her first poop and wee on the potty!! I was slightly more shocked as I had a lot of trouble with getting Lily to poop on the potty.. But Laila definitely took it with ease apart from wearing knickers! But I am very proud of her!

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Even though I am slightly becoming emotional that my baby isn’t that much of a baby any more she is growing up ever so quickly and becoming such a smart happy child just like her sister. I am still truly shocked that this milestone has been hit before the age of two but she was more than ready and I am truly proud!

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Finding the right balance..

Over the past few weeks I have started noticing some changes with Lily.. One of them being good and the other bad! Lets start with the bad.. Just because I like happy endings and I would like this post to end happy

When becoming a parent I never thought I would face these problems.. I knew it wouldn’t be easy but no one, I mean no one prepared me for this! My four year old daughter has turned into a teenager! Her attitude stinks! All of mine and Bradley’s rules have grew wings and took a journey far, far away. During half term I had the most embarrassing outing experience, I am still cringing thinking about it now. Me and Bradley decided to go out with the kids just to have a look around town and grab a few things. Well while we was out Lily deicide she did not want to hold my hand, we was getting close to a crossing so I kept telling her that she needs to other wise she will have to give me her teddy.. Well her being the stubborn “teenager” she is, she decided to test what I said so I took her teddy and grabbed her hand, then all of a sudden I heard her scream “YOUR EVIL!” then cry out loud so everyone turned around and looked at us while she was screaming and crying as loud as she could. I have never felt so embarrassed to be honest.

Sadly this isn’t the only incident we have had but lucky enough these moments weren’t outside, that’s a plus right? Me and Bradley feel as if we have lost control. Our little girl has gone from a polite princess into a rude madam, for example Lily wanted a drink so she asked Bradley if she could have one. Bradley asked if she could ask again and say please this time in which she replied “No daddy you cannot tell me, only mummy can tell me!” I couldn’t believe my ears! Complete and utter shock took over both of us, but not as shocking as the next one. This one really got to me, Lily and Laila was watching cartoons and on normal days Lily would let Laila lay her head on her leg but this time Lily got really angry, shouted “Get off of me” and kicked Laila off of the sofa with both feet so she landed on her back, hit her head and cried of course but thankfully she wasn’t seriously hurt, one thing I would say Lily knew she did wrong as she got up and attempted run away because she knew she was going straight on the naughty step.

But hey, enough with the negatives as I could go on for a while. But the good side is she is actually eating more!! I haven’t weighed her as of yet but she is eating breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks! This is a huge relief off of mine and Bradley’s shoulders and hopefully we will start seeing her gain some weight, I don’t know if its in my head but when I pick her up she feels heavier but we will soon see, She still likes eating the same things all the time like pancakes for breakfast, scrambled egg for lunch.. Dinner time she don’t get to choose but she is eating them and telling me she really likes them and for snacks she has been having fruit, yoghurt and the odd sweets here and there, but I am truly happy with her eating but trying to find the right balance with her attitude as I am finding it hard to reward her eating but not her attitude.


Don’t worry she didn’t manage to eat all that chocolate, she still has a lot left as she only ate his ear off .. She can be such a wonderful little girl but these hurdles do make parenting that little more stressful.

Samantha x

Things have been a little stressful..

Sorry for the absence this week.. Things have been a bit hectic.

We have had such a nightmare, we had Lily’s dietician appointment which was useless! I travelled 20 miles by train and bus to wait 2 hours to be seen by the dietician to just feel like I was being judged, she looked at me like I didn’t know anything and She told me all the things I already know and I couldn’t get a word in! GRR! I am worried about Lily and people make it seem like I shouldn’t be. Even though she hasn’t lost weight, she is remaining the same weight at 12.7kg. Which to me is very worrying, but don’t get me wrong I am happy that she isn’t dropping any weight but at the moment I would love to see progress because this is something which effects our house hold daily.

Secondly Laila got the most horrid stomach bug! It lasted for 3 days and she still isn’t 100 percent recovered. We took a trip to the GP as I’ve personally never known a stomach bug to last longer than 24 hours, we have sent off a stool sample to rule out what bug she has so hopefully we shall get the results soon.

What has confused me lately as well is that I have been waking up with really bad headaches this past week, I really hope these don’t stick around much longer as I do not fancy another doctors visit at the moment, I really cannot put my finger on what is the matter with me, normally I can cope with this sort of load but I feel so tired… It’s only these past few days I have dragged myself up and thought you know what I need to get this house work done and stop letting this tiredness get the better of me. I really wish I could of made this half term fun for the kids but unfortunately I’ll have to wait for the next holidays now as Lily returns to nursery tomorrow..

I never want to become one of those mums…

This is a subject that I am very scared to write about, I keep telling myself not to write about it, should I listen to myself? Honestly I am not sure.. I really need to get this off my chest but I don’t know where I should start..

I never want to become one of those mums who don’t listen to their children’s concerns and problems, shouldn’t a mother give guidance and wisdom to their child, make them feel safe and secure?

Not the mother I know.. My mother isn’t even the slightest concerned about my problems nor her grandchildren well not mine anyway..

How can a mother randomly ring her daughter up and make her feel as if she is worthless? This is why I have deicide to never answer those random phone calls again, you might be thinking you never want to talk to your mum? Well would you if she only rings you once every 6 months? Not even in the morning only late at night, she never rings in the morning. When I had I.C.P with Laila in fact the whole pregnancy she didn’t even ring me once after I had my c-section she never even called to say congratulations, she came to see her and Lily once for 5 minutes. Lily keeps asking me why she hasn’t got a Nan it is very hard to explain this to her. The last ever conversation I had with my mum ended in tears and I never want to feel like that again. She thinks Laila’s name is Lila for some strange reason, She even called me disgusting for breastfeeding, She never rings on Lily’s or Laila’s birthdays nor mine which doesn’t bother me, I just don’t know how I’m going to explain to the girls.

There is so many memories I can type about this subject but honestly I think this post would never end, I just wanted to get this rant off of my chest and I feel so much better for it! I am debating if I should post this or not. It is going to be very hard to press publish but I think sharing this will help take some of the weight off.

Yaki Soba Recipe


Preparation time: 15 mins
Cooking time: 20 mins

I thought I would share this recipe with use because its very easy and tastes amazing!


  • 1 green pepper
  • 1 carrot thinly sliced
  • 1/4 sliced white cabbage
  • 1 onion sliced
  • 1 tbsp of sesame oil
  • Packet of fresh egg noodles
  • 330g of pork loin steaks sliced
  • Eggs (optional)

For the sauce

  • 1 tbsp of Mirin
  • 2 tbsp of Soy
  • 3 tbsp Worcestershire sauce

Firstly mix all the sauce ingredients in a bowl or jug and set aside then begin to prep the veg and meat.


Heat some oil in a wok until it is fairly hot then add the meat and stir fry until the meat is just about cooked then you remove it from the wok and put to the side. Then turn the heat down to a medium heat and add the onions, carrots, green pepper and cabbage then stir fry for about 10 minutes or until your preferred texture. If you want boiled eggs with your dish then this is the time to start boiling them.


Once your vegetables are to your preferred texture return the meat along with the egg noodles and sauce, toss everything together and cook for about 3-5 minutes. Then serve and enjoy!